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Well, he’d been euthanized but it hadn’t gone well for his person and she was in distress.   She thought it happened too fast; the dog reacted snappishly to the first needle and his person worried he hadn’t been ready to die.  She was wracked with guilt and a mutual friend asked me, what did I think?

Winston was 16 and his kidneys were failing.  He’d stopped eating and resisted his IV fluids.  Standing up was a job.  Why wouldn’t he be happy to go?

Easy for me to say.  In my 12+ years reading animals I’d yet to encounter one who felt resentful or rushed when they were euthanized.   Most felt so good after passing to spirit, it was comical.

I’ve never known a pet to hold a grudge after the fact. The worst I’d seen was a philosophical acceptance.  But then again, experience showed me that companion animals didn’t end, they went on in spirit.  So when my own pets passed, I didn’t worry too much about ending their lives.  I saw them struggling in their bodies and the quality of their lives had become very low.  There was no reason to keep them going as long as I could, except as an attempt to ease my own pain.

I offered to talk to the dog.  In retrospect I shouldn’t have; Winston’s person hadn’t asked me.  Instead, her roommate accepted the offer and went on to produce some photos of Winston.  I took this as permission.

Winston’s person will not listen to the reading, she’s too scared.  Her dog has been gone over a month and she’s stuck in a repetitive loop of grief and guilt.  If she were to listen she would hear how relieved he was to pass.  She would hear how the needle startled him but that was all–he wasn’t trying to protest.  His spirit had already passed partially out of his body and he was simply confused.

She would hear him say how much he appreciated having her as his person.  How remarkable she is, how powerful.  How this year can be her year, if she will just get in touch with her dreams and begin to take the steps.









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